The death of my father a few weeks ago has allowed me to go deeply into my wounding around the sacred masculine, the lack of fathering I experienced, the grief around not feeling protective arms around me.
For many of us our fathers have been somewhat absent, physically or emotionally or both.
Things have been changing for some time now, but traditionally the fathers were away from the families, out to earn money to provide. And even if that was not the case often fathers did not allow themselves or knew how to show their emotions, how to be present with their children.
My father for example was often impatient and aggressive. I now have the understanding that this was rooted in a deep lack of self worth and insecurity. He himself was never seen or loved by his own father and therefore never learned to show love and appreciation to his children, to me and my two brothers.
It has affected me deeply, but I feel, that those who identify more with the masculine, are in a male body this life time are affected much more significantly by those absent, emotionally immature fathers.
Both of my brothers have struggled with self love and self worth over the years leading to addiction and disability in my oldest brother.
Following a lot of work around this wounding over the years and the death of my father I had the opportunity to release grief from many lifetimes around this wounding for myself and on behalf of the collective in a ceremony last week.
There is a long line of fathers in possibly most ancestral lines that have not experienced love by their own fathers resulting in a lack of self worth, which then often is passed on to especially their own sons. This is why I feel the masculine energies today are distorted in many of us. Many men don’t seem to be able to match the strong women, that have somewhat had a slight advantage through the rising of the sacred feminine over the last decades.
What I learned is to connect first of all with the father inside of me, to respect my individuality, let myself be guided and cared for by these masculine forces, the primal energy of the cosmic father.
This is an energy of protection, strength, wisdom and overview, which is always available to us. It can be helpful to have a male guide you work with who represents these energies.
All healing is alchemy and all of us have the powers to bring about a new consciousness in this world. Let’s forgive our absent fathers, heal our own distorted masculine, learn to father ourselves and be a role model for our children.
We are the seed for this renewal.
And may all fathers know that they are loved
And may all brothers know that they are strong
And may all sons know that they are worthy
So the sacred fire may burn on ✨🔥❤️
