From today I am officially divorced.
Just over 4 years ago my ex-husband Kris Lander and I went our separate ways.
Interestingly the divorce date coincides with the day I was meant to leave Guatemala for Brazil. But the Universe had different plans and I missed my flight this morning.
So now I am in a hotel near the airport in Guatemala City and have a day that feels like a day out of time. And I realise I need this day to process the termination of the contract that we made on 20.10.2012.
Although we had a ceremony to cut the ties and release each other some time ago, at least for me this formal contract and promise that we spoke all these years ago still had a strong effect and influence.
I love deeply and I am very loyal. And the idea of diving into a new relationship has scared me. The very few men that I let “kind of” in (really only one) over the last 4 years were not candidates for a strong bond and committed partnership.
However I feel that leaving Guatemala (hopefully tomorrow) for a new phase in my life and the divorce finally coming through will lead to an opening, a coming home and a calling in, which I am excited about.
Kris, thank you for all those beautiful years as my husband and now as my friend. I do still miss you, but I am very happy that you and Carolina have found each other. All my blessings for you two.
And finally I feel that I am ready to invite a beautiful Beloved (yes, I have made a list….) into my life, so we can go on double dates… (-;
I love you. Always your Hippie ❤️
